The Temptations and Frustrations of a Dieting Momma

Welcome to 2017…another year, another 365 days of chances…

…but I’m not there…

…nor did I attend any other reunions they’ve held…

Why?

I’ve made excuses today that include “People I’d like to see won’t be there” and “$50/person is a lot of money for an informal reunion”, but I have to admit to myself that those are both lies.

The real reason?

My weight.

I’m not going to my high school reunion because of my weight, because I’m embarrassed about it and the way I look. Because I feel like a failure for never being able to truly dedicate myself to losing weight, and then making excuses and rationalizations about that as well.

The body is willing but the mind isn’t…but why not?

Like I titled this post, I need to stop thinking so much about what being healthy would be worth, think about how much you would save – not just saving your years, saving your health, but also with saving you money. You might spend more in the immediate for a gym membership, workout clothes, nutritionist, Weight Watchers, etc., but in the longterm you will benefit – mentally, health-wise, and financially.

You might be thinking, “okay I get mentally and health-wise, but financially?”….well, yes…

What got me thinking about that was when I drove through Arby’s for lunch today. My husband was working, and I was hungry, and I decided an Arby’s Roast Beef Sandwich sounded good. Without thinking, I ordered my meal and then immediately ordered an extra sandwich. Not because I was hungry, but rather out of habit, instinct, whatever you want to call it… Fortunately, it meant that I can tell my husband that I actually ordered it for him, and he’ll eat it when he gets home from work, but, even though I’m not hungry enough to eat a second sandwich, I had ordered one anyway…not thinking, not intending to, but still wound up spending $2.99 more than I had originally intended.

Fortunately, we’re not cash strapped where a $2.99 sandwich will break the bank, but it made me think about how much over time those extra food items accumulate to cost.

I’m posting this here as a reminder to myself that even if I decide to join a gym or pay for another nutritionist (when I can find one in my area), that those out of pocket costs now will save money later when I won’t order any extra items, whether intentionally or unintentionally.

…look for me to start posting again as I am re-dedicating myself to starting my weight loss process over from where I originally started at.

The current tools in my arsenal?

Well, since you asked…

My FitBit One…

My Polar FT60 Heart Rate Monitor

My Polar H7 Bluetooth Smart Heart Rate Sensor (in black)